what was i thinking ?

Okay theres this kid that i like but wtf was i thinking, its never going to happen, he's like so much better than me, he's soo popular and good looking and nice. those people just kinda seem to like make me smilee alot but why cant i ever have them. gutted really, lol i just want someone to make me feel special like i belong someone who can take my wierdness :S Grr. im so angry at myself i seem to do everything wrong even this blog is wrong i cant even spell why am i even telling you this no ones going to read it!